Today, I needed a reminder.

My friend had this posted on his facebook. I needed to apply it to my life today. As good as I have been doing lately (I "woke up" from my zombie like state in late February) I still need some reminders that I am desirable, I am worth loving and I will find it again.

I think after experiencing a relationship that meant a lot, that budded beautifully for a long time, I expected all of them to be that way. And while the most recent was snuffed out rather quickly, I accepted the fact that while he said "I love you" he wasn't really telling the truth. He thought he was...but he wasn't ready to say it, and I can acknowledge that without it hurting. Until I remember that I've only been loved once, and it didn't work out very well. Then I feel bad. because I can't honestly say, "I'll happen again." It didn't this time. So, here's what I need to be reminded of. Something my friend James titled "Someday, you will be loved":

I once knew a girl,
In the years of my youth.
With eyes like the summer,
All beauty and truth.
And in the moment I fled,
I left a note and it read:
"Someday, you will be loved."

You'll be loved, You'll be loved,
Like you never have known.
And the memories of me,
Will seem more like bad dreams.
Just a series of blurs,
Like I never occurred.
Someday, you will be loved.

I cannot pretend,
That I felt any regret.
'Cause each broken heart,
Will eventually mend.
And as the blood runs red,
down the needle and thread,
Someday, you will be loved.

You'll be loved You'll be loved,
Like you never have known.
And the memories of me,
Will seem more like bad dreams.
Just a series of blurs,
Like I never occurred.
Someday, you will be loved.