Two Days In

As promised, here are my thoughts of two days of truth telling.

I never realized how much I fib about things. Not big giant lies, but little ones just...because. It's strange. Just to make situations easier.
For example, today I spent some time cleaning my house for my relatives. But before Dad & I took care of a lot of stuff, but I had to go to a voice lessons. I was in my pajamas all the way up until five minutes before I had to leave, and ended up leaving my house about 10 minutes later than the time needed to get there punctually. I thought, 'I'll just tell Kassy I was cleaning.' Thing was, I wasn't cleaning, I had been taking a shower & I took too long.

It alarmed me that I had thought up some dumb story that quickly. What I really wanted was to not disappoint someone. This really tells me something about myself- that I'm used to making people happy, I WANT to make people happy, and I'm willing to sacrifice some things to make it happen. Honesty can't be something I sacrifice. It's healthy (not only for me but for others) to be honest.

Good news is, my honesty proves to be a good thing, and it is helping. One of my friends was texting me today, distressed about her ex-boyfriend. She was upset that he made other plans than to go to her recital tomorrow, and she is having a hard time getting over him. I asked her if she wanted my opinion (which she did) and I told her she needed to give herself a chance to take space. I told her that from what I saw, he wasn't putting her on his priority list, so she shouldn't put him on hers. I told her she should concentrate on other things that will make her life good. And rather than being upset like I thought she might be, she was happy to have received the advice (I think).

So good, I guess. I also see that in general, I'm a pretty honest person. I guess this week is the week to ask me silly questions like "when was the last time you peed your pants?" because I will tell you the truth :P

p.s. Yes, I graduated from high school tonight (ROCK!) and I'll be sure to write about that in a later post, once I figure out what it is I need to say. That needs to go in my thought book first. :)