Worth waiting for

I've always grown up with good values and morals in my household. My parents have done a really great job with that.
But there's something great about making them your own.

When I was thirteen years old, a man named Jeff Lovell came into my Family & Consumer Education class to talk about how to have the greatest sex of your life. He talked about how wonderful it was to wait until marriage- how important it was to save yourself for the person that's right for you, because they can save themself for you too.
Jeff Lovell changed my life that day.

I guess I had always expected to "wait until marriage", but that day was the first time I really assessed why and whether or not I really wanted to. And I decided that I did, and I have stuck with that since.

A lot of my friends have lost their virginity. Some to people they love, some to people they didn't. A good friend of mine who was once on the same thought track as me just lost hers- and I'm not mad/dissapointed/blah blah blah, it just makes me think harder about my situation.
Is someone waiting for me?

This diffuses directly into my thoughts of dating. After a year and seven months with someone I really fell in love with, I need to take a good long look at what's going on in my life. I am trying to figure out where I stand.

I do not/never have believe/believed in casual dating. It has never made sense to me why people "only date for the summer" or go on dates with numerous people. I would rather have commitment.
YET I don't...I don't want to get married anytime in the near future. I (we) talked myself (ourselves) sick about it and now I see how dangerous it is to make plans for one other person. That's not the path I want to be on right now. I don't want to go out LOOKING for love. I just want it to happen, like it did for Caleb and I.

So since I'm not looking for marriage but I don't want to casually date/be in a relationship without love, where does that leave me? To not dating/being in relationships at all? I don't want to push myself into anything. I don't want to lead any guy on into thinking I'm ok with dating if I'm not.
But I don't want to limit my options either.

I guess the best thing to resolve myself to is to do nothing about it. There is a time for everything, and there will be a time for dating and courtship and marriage. When something happens, I'll know. Until then, I'll just concentrate on living life, spending time with my friends and family. No need to look for things. They're worth waiting for.